What an interesting title you may wonder. My brother was filming some behind the scenes of the film crew and that’s what someone said to describe me while filming a short back in 2010. At the time, I would watch the footage over and over again upset. How could she say that? Looking back now, I realize those words were definitely correct. I had no idea what I was doing. I wrote a screenplay but it was lacking any meaning or real story. Expecting perfection without even knowing what perfection was. I had come up with a title, based the film around it, but the story didn’t even connect back to the title. What’s funny is the film was meant to be scary but watching it now it’s a comedy. I was taking on too much for my first official short film. But most important I realize how hard it was for others to work with me. The reason being, frustration. I was frustrated with myself, and the way things were turning out.
From that point on I told myself I never want anyone to say that again about me. Though just a hobby, it was a hobby I had passion about. So I was determined to improve. Well as you read in my first post life happens so fast, and the time went from 2010 to 2012. I made a few films in between then but no where near what I wanted so I could get the practice needed to improve. But then in mid 2012 I was determined to improve, but to really improve. I forced myself everyday to spend 15 mins doing something video related. From learning how to balance my glidecam, to faster edits, to practice with different tripods, to learning about the insides of cameras. It was amazing how even though only 15 mins were spent each day; I was learning and improving. There is a universal message here, regardless if you are a person who finds film interesting or not. If there is something new you want to learn its better to spend a few minutes each day learning versus letting life happen and waiting for “free time”. Because as we all know that never happens. Sorry…had to throw that out there. But then a few months ago I was privileged enough to meet someone who came at the perfect time in my life. My close friend was moving to New York and it was hard, but then I met Josh. Not only is he an awesome friend, but we have so much in common, including film. His generous personality has been a great aide to me as he constantly offers help and advice. His knowledge comes from years in film and he currently holds a professional career working with various colleges. I’m so grateful our paths have crossed and let’s just say the first post is a clue of what is to come from our two minds.
So how can I summarize this post? Practice makes perfect, but if you never practice you can’t improve. So to everyone, including myself, get out there and practice doing what you love most.
Here are some stills from the first official short film.